Zaira Wasim opened her battle with depression, contemplates break from everything

Vastavam web: “Dangal” star and national award-winning actor Zaira Wasim has opened up about her battle with depression, saying she needs a “complete break” from work and school to figure things out.In a lengthy post on Instagram, the 17-year-old actor said she has been suffering from the illness for the past four years, during which she even had “suicidal thoughts”, but did not share it with anyone due to the stigma around the issue.

“I’m writing this to admit and confess that I, for a very long time have been suffering from severe anxiety and depression. It’s almost been four years and I’ve always been embarrassed and scared to admit it not only because of the stigma that goes around with the word depression with it but most importantly because of always being told that ‘You’re too young to be depressed’ or ‘It’s just a phase’,” Zaira wrote in her post.

“Perhaps it could’ve been ‘just a phase’ but this awful phase has put me in situations I never wished or chose to be in. Popping five antidepressants every day, anxiety attacks, being rushed to the hospital in the middle of the night, feeling empty, restless, anxious, hallucinations, having sore limbs from sleeping too much to not being able to sleep for weeks, from overeating to starving myself, unexplained fatigue, body ache, self loathing, nervous breakdowns, suicidal thoughts were all parts of this phase,” she said.

“I’ve had and I’m still having, losing count of the number of times I have been told- ‘It’s nothing, you’re too young to be depressed,” she said. The “Secret Superstar” actor said she was always made to believe that there is nothing wrong with her and that she is too young to suffer depression.

“But I knew- I always did and I still do. I remember being told that there’s no such thing as depression, it only happens to people to were above 25. But I could never actually accept the fact that I suffer from a disorder called depression- that affects almost 350 million people worldwide; without asking for their permission to ruin their mental and emotional state or asking them their age, she said. “Today I’m finally ready to understand my illness and embrace the version of myself which I’ve always wanted to accept, without being ashamed, embarrassed and having the fear of being judged for it,” Zaira said.

The actor said she needed a complete break from everything, including school and social media, and thanked her family for their support.”I just need a complete break from everything, my social life, my work, school and especially social media. I’m really looking forward to the holy month of Ramadhan as it may be the perfect opportunity to figure things out. Please remember me in your prayers.